Danielle Evans, "Opinion Pieces from the Columbia Spectator" (page 5 of
5)
(Re)-Education: Shock Value
April 06, 2004
Several weeks after the public demonstrations calling attention to
institutionalized racism and its impact on the Columbia community, the
dialogue on race and racism on campus has dwindled, particularly among
those not actively involved in the ongoing negotiations with the
administration. This silence, while predictable given the amnesia that
midterms and spring break annually induce, is a shame. Among the people
for whom the conversation about race was newest and most crucial, it has
stopped before it started. This is not to say that everyone responded to
the silent protest by seriously engaging the issues that organizers were
raising. Leaving the demonstration one afternoon, I heard one student
say to another, "Not this bullshit again," while walking past. Earlier
in the week, as I was getting my mail in Lerner, I overheard a student
saying, "If they don't get that this was just a joke, they really aren't
smart enough to be here." It was this attitude of
dismissiveness—sadly, neither new nor surprising—that
principally motivated my own involvement in the demonstrations. Not to
make a habit of quoting James Baldwin—though as habits go, it's
better than most of my other ones—but here, once again: "It is the
innocence that constitutes the crime." What is most troubling about the
still unfinished conversation about race on this campus is the repeated
denial of the problem, the continued insistence that no one was
responsible for or obligated to address people's anger and injury if it
didn't resonate with them.
From my perspective—and I speak only for myself, not in any
official capacity—although the silent protest derived a great deal
of energy from public incidents like the CCCC bake sale, Orgo Night, and
The Fed cartoon, it was ultimately about much more. Frustration among
marginalized segments of the student body has been present for quite
some time. Many students of color at Columbia do not and never have felt
that they are equal members of the university community. The frequency
of ignorant and racist comments, challenges to their very right to
attend the university, and neglect by university officials who write off
most of these complaints have led to feelings of alienation and anger
among students of color that are easily awakened by events like these,
even when they are framed as satire.
We do not all enter the university on equal footing; we cannot
pretend we are united enough or familiar enough to mock each other and
pretend it is "all in the family." Rather, we deal daily with
manifestations of privilege, in classrooms, on our syllabi, and in our
public spaces, and when we attempt to confront them we are generally
greeted with the glib rhetoric of diversity and tolerance that assumes
slogans are enough, and ultimately insists upon its own innocence while
dismissing criticism as emotional or irrational.
At a point when I was spending a great deal of time thinking and
talking about these issues, a friend interjected, "I'm not saying that
you're not right, but aren't there more important things to worry
about?" During that time I was also watching and re-watching war
documentaries for my thesis. Certainly, while looking at explosions and
dismembered bodies flicker across the television screen, it was at times
hard for me not to see this action, like most other campus action, as
somewhat trivial.
However, while watching people our age describe explosions or battles
as "just like in the movies," and then return to fight them, I was
struck by the casual acquiescence to the perpetual inevitability of
hostility, even when its result was death. It was a dismissive attitude
not entirely unrelated to the attitude exhibited on our own
campus—the attitude that some people's anger can be written off,
that some conversations about difference cannot or need not be
entertained, that we will engage certain people only when shocked into
thinking about them, and will do so only from the perspective that we
are innocent victims of their naïve or willfully malevolent
irrationality.
As someone who will be leaving Columbia in a little over a month, and
already feels very little attachment to it, I certainly understand that
there is a world bigger than what lies within these gates. However, at
the risk of falling into the trap of "the left is always conflating
separate issues, and thereby confusing them," I continue to believe that
if Columbia University graduates people who are unwilling or unable to
tolerate a critique of their campus, who believe change to be
impossible, and who are able to ignore or ridicule the injuries of their
classmates and deny their own responsibility in creating them, it is
graduating irresponsible world citizens.
I hope that negotiations on the proposal submitted by student
organizers result in serious commitments on the part of the University,
but also that, regardless of administrative action, students are willing
to finish uncomfortable conversations and be troubled by the stress and
distress of their fellow students. We must all take responsibility for
the problems in our own community—of which racial privilege is
only one—even if treating them as serious problems implicates all
of us.
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