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In order to begin to make it possible to address some of these less traumatic legacies, in my presentation I turned to the words of a child survivor and child of survivors, poet and activist Irena Klepfisz, and an interview with the French artist Christian Boltanski, a child of survivors. I use their words, the texts that open this section, because both Boltanski and Klepfisz express, albeit in different ways, their longing for the ordinary, for common things. In Boltanski's case, he asks simply for a normal childhood and without such a past feels compelled to make one up. Klepfisz, on the other hand, argues that the thing survivors mourn most is the loss of the quotidian, the ordinary stuff of everyday life, "familiar faces, named streets, stores, and schools, teammates, friends, libraries, doctors, hospitals, lectures, marches, strikes, political allies and enemies - the people, places and institutions that make up the fabric of any human being's ordinary everyday life." These are the things, she argues, that survivors remember and mourn again and again.
What follows is a version of what I said at Barnard. I repeat these words here because they were about what it might take for American Jews to risk changing our focus. It was about permission and echoes the conversations that made possible the discussion that did transpire at Barnard.
For most American Jews, like most of those included in this collection, touching the past, especially our own families' pasts, is entangled with the Holocaust. Although no one in my own family was directly affected by the Holocaust - there are no survivors in my family, no family members who died in hiding or in camps - I, like so many American Jews, cannot get to these other stories without remembering the Holocaust. Even as the Holocaust serves as a barrier keeping us from these other stories, it is also a way in. As my parents and their families, like so many other American Jewish families, lived out their lives in the relative safety and comfort of the United States of the 1930s and 1940s, the lives of European Jews were devastated. European Jewish life was destroyed in broad and brutal strokes. The simultaneity of these narratives is only a part of the story.
What interests me is how tangled these legacies have become in the 50 years since the war, how difficult it has become even to broach some of the more ordinary tales of American Jews, immigrant Jews from Eastern Europe who came to the United States at the turn of the last century, and those who came even earlier, Jews originally from Spain and the Netherlands and those who came in the mid-nineteenth century from Central Europe. Because I want to look at these other, perhaps more ordinary tales, I have asked myself again and again why it is so difficult to tell these stories? What holds us back? Instead of turning away from this dilemma, I want to use it here as my way into this collection of other visions and other stories about American Jews.
And so I begin with the words of children of survivors, children who long for ordinary lives, children who recognize the preciousness of everyday things precisely because their lives have been shaped by extraordinary loss. I am interested in the seemingly necessary interrelationship between ordinary and extraordinary legacies. It is difficult to invoke one legacy without a phantom or haunting presence of the other, at least at this particular historical moment, the beginning of the twenty- first century.
I have lived with Irena Klepfisz's words for a very long time and in many ways, they have enabled my own.6 In some sense, it is her status as a child survivor and child of a survivor writing about the Holocaust that has emboldened me to begin to take seriously the ordinary legacy that is my own, the common tales of my own family's history in this country, an immigrant legacy that is the only family history that I have.7 And I can tell only this tale.
The names of the places my family came from, much less their various family names, the names they had before coming to this country have already been lost.
Although I have touched the graves of at least some of my great grandparents buried in this country, I do not know where they came from. They are as far back as my family goes. The oldest of these relatives include my paternal great grandmother who helped raise my father and, according to her gravestone, she was born in 1869. It is here where my family history begins, and here my story is a common one. It is the kind of narrative that is necessarily seen in contrast to the traumatic legacy of survivors.8